Today's drop off at school did not go so well. Serenity has done super so far this week. she hasn't cried, she hasn't tried to hold onto me, she's just went on into school and i've handed her off and she's been having a great time. well today i tried to just drop her at the curb like a big girl. that didn't really happen. She was screaming that she wanted me to go in with her. She was holding onto the inside of the car as one of the teachers had to help pull her out telling her about how she would help her to class and reassuring me that she would be fine as soon as i drove away. she was just going to cry until she saw her friends and her teacher but it didn't really help me. as soon as she closed my car door i lost it. i've cried here and there over her going to school but with this episode i bawled. i was sobbing as i drove out of the parking lot. i continued to do this the bulk of my ride home. it killed me to see my little girl crying so hard about something so little. so of course i decided, and told her this afternoon when i picked her up, that i will walk her in until she doesn't want me to anymore. when she tells me she is too big to be walked in is when i will stop and until then i'll treat her like my baby girl b/c let's face it, that's what she is :)
I'm gonna let her be my baby as long as she allows me too and if the only thing that let's me do that is walking her into school then by golly i'll do it.
(oh, but she did say she had an awesome day at school, so i'm pretty sure it happened just like the teacher said it would and she stopped crying as soon as i left and she went inside)
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